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“Yes, Philip,” she said, looking Washington Capitals T-Shirts at him pleadingly, as if she entreated him to believe that she was compelled to this course. “At least, as things are; I don’t know what may be in years to come. But I begin to think there can never come much happiness to me from loving; I have always had so much pain mingled with it. I wish I could make myself a world outside it, as men do.”
“Now you are returning to your old thought in a new form, Maggie — the thought I used to combat,” said Philip, with a slight tinge Kurtka Woolrich Damskie Norwegian Fur of bitterness. “You want to find out a mode of renunciation that will be an escape from pain. I tell you again, there is no such escape possible except by perverting or mutilating one’s nature. What would become of me, if I tried to escape from pain? Scorn and cynicism would be my only opium; unless I could fall into some kind of conceited madness, and fancy myself a favorite of Heaven because I am not a favorite with men.”
The bitterness had taken on some impetuosity as Philip went on speaking; the words were evidently an outlet for some immediate feeling of his own, as well as an answer to Maggie. There was a pain pressing on him at that moment. He shrank with proud delicacy from the faintest allusion to the words of love, of plighted love that had passed between them. It would have seemed to him like reminding Maggie of a promise; it would have had for him something of the baseness of compulsion. He could not dwell on the fact that he himself had not changed; for that too would have had the air of an appeal. His love for Maggie was stamped, even more than the rest of his experience, with the Maillot 17/18 exaggerated sense that he was an exception — that Maillot Estonie she, that every one, saw Max Pacioretty Tröja him in the Steven Kampfer Tröjor light Fotbalisté Dres of an exception.
But Maggie was conscience-stricken.
“Yes, Philip,” she said, with her childish contrition when he used to chide her, “you are right, I know. I Alexei Kovalev Tröja do always think too Maillot Di María much of my own feelings, and not enough of others’ — not enough of yours. I had need have you Maillot Neymar Jr always to find fault with me and teach me; so many things have come true that you used to tell me.”
Maggie was resting her elbow on Everton Dresy the table, leaning her head on her hand and Michael Kors Torby Na Ramię looking at Philip with half-penitent dependent affection, as she said this; while he was returning her gaze with an expression that, to her consciousness, gradually became less vague — became charged with a specific recollection. Had his mind flown back to something that she now remembered — something about a lover of Lucy’s? It was a thought that made her shudder; it gave new definiteness to her present position, and to the tendency of what had happened the evening before. She moved her arm from the table, urged to change her position by that positive physical oppression at the heart that sometimes accompanies a sudden mental pang.
“What is the matter, Maggie? Has something happened?” Philip said, in inexpressible anxiety, his imagination being only too ready to weave everything that was fatal to them both.
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